Friday 7 August 2015

Being Dan Boko Without Being Educated and Without Being Dan Boko Haram


By Abubakar Sulaiman Muhd

Being Friday, I know the day comes with a lot of businesses. So I will be brief. But there is this anguish in my heart which I want you to know. I will tell you now.

Key Words: Dan Boko, Educated, Boko Haram.

Translation:

Dan Boko, he who is educated.

Educated means being educated.

Boko Haram. Modern education is forbidden.

And Dan Boko Haram means an opposer, hater and a fighter against modern education.

I will explain.

Being educated without really being educated and committed to the mission and safely emerging as educated without being a hater of learning, in other words, Dan Boko Haram.

Especially in Kano, because people have some folk in their family who attended schools and have become  bureaucrats, doctors, teachers, bankers, pharmacists, lawyers etecetra, (I see someone is looking at me, there are also professionals in my family) you will hear people say so and so family members are ‘Yan Boko – those who are educated. They will make you have the impression that those ‘Yan Boko are well-lettered and truly educated. Until you go to their rooms to borrow some books then you will realize that they don’t have anything. They are not readers. In fact, they hate reading. They would look you with horrible eyes and ask “what kind of reading after the university?” We are in terrible situation.

I wonder how a person would be educated or simply called Dan Boko without reading books, restricting themselves only to prescription in the curriculum. There are even those who will die without reading a single book. And they are still ‘Yan Boko, everyone in society saw them go to school since childhood and now they work in offices. We are in a lopsided society with a tiny fraction of readers, where those who don’t read overwhelmingly outnumber those who read. When I hear people beating their chest because they have this and that in their family, staff this, staff that, I feel like committing suicide.

Questions assailed me when I first read in articles written by some Nigerians calling some folk as diseducated, half-educated, miseducated, this and that. Imagine a lawyer asking why should I bother to study Political Science in the university. All those politicians do not read Political Science before they become politicians.  That was a moment of shock. A whole lawyer saying this? I know there are diseducated people and educated illiterate but I have never thought of having miseducated lawyer.

Now my doubts are washed away by the unassailable fact that our people are greatest enemy of books and deep reflection. Teachers and students are oppressed by what Paulo Freire called the ‘banking concept education’ where teachers deposit what they consider to be objective facts into the minds of their students and expect no flexible, no fluid thinking, no varied and independent opinion from the students but accept them as rigid and unassailable and the students make no effort to free themselves. Imagine a student complaining that his score in an examination is not correctly written and the whole department is furious about that. Because I know I have poor memory, I have never thought of getting Firs-Class certificate in my university education. I have an existentialist view of knowledge and not mere certificate. 

The criterion is that many can go to school, attend colleges and universities, become successful in life, hold MA, PhD and even become professors, but only few can become truly educated and enlightened. When you find that you are a member of the community of readers, those who are lucky to get to marry books, and not in the colony of haters and divorcers of books, you simply have to be grateful. Whenever I remember this fact a peace of mind descends in me.

It is disheartening how you will hear folk asking “and you will read this whole book” when they see 400+ pages book in your hand.  For them, that’s insurmountable, something impossible. They have forgotten that somebody has written it and your work will never be as daunting as the writer’s.  

My friend Aliyu told me the same torment he receives daily from the public, how people abuse him with insulting questions and silly remarks. Because pictures of the authors at the back of African Writers Series publications sometimes come blurred and unclear especially with pirated copies, someone once sympathized with Aliyu and said “I hope you will not be like this,”  pointing at the wretched writer.

Anytime I come across this incident of someone raising doubt about reading a whole book, I feel a bit embarrassed. Those people are your colleagues on campus. I show pity and understanding. I will simply be looking at the head of those vomiting these words thinking what are they really thinking, do they really know  joy in life, are they really normal,  and also to see if I could see where the wire of reasoning and perception in their head gets disconnected. Human without reading? A man isn’t a man!

The reason you will be grateful when you are lucky to be among the tiny fraction of readers is because reading is everything and what truly human beings do. It broadens your mind, your horizon, your perception and liberates the operation of the constitution of mindset. The secret of life lies in books. The joy of life lies in books.  There are uncharted territories in books. Individual gets lost in their own world. The modern sciences and technology that you think are unconnected with arts are actually connected with arts. Read the history of invention.

Now some folk in sciences have began to recognize this paradise they have been missing and are reconsidering their allegiance. Some renowned Nigerian writers were originally in sciences and now have imported into this business of books.

One day I was in a bookshop to buy a novel. I spent a great deal of time searching across the shelves. I could not get the book. It was unavailable on the stock. Somebody in the shop had been following what was happening and had listened my conversation keenly with the bookseller. 

“What would you do with the book?” He asked, not because he did not know what people are doing with books. The manner at which he was speaking showed a gatekeeping process and assessment to make sure my quest for the book was genuine and committed. Before I answered I quickly said “Mallam ko kana da shi?” Do you have it?

We made arrangement to visit his home.  He gave me his card.  When I read it I found that he’s a professor of Medicine at Bayero University kano, and a consultant with WHO wing of the United Nation Organizations and a Medical Director at Aminu kano Teaching Hospital. The surprise in me was unmistakable, knowing how people in sciences and medicine have removed themselves from reading culture.

We had a nice intellectual discussion when I visited his home. He asked me which school I was attending and I told him that I was in college doing IJMB and wanted to read Law in the university. He felt unease. He suggested that I should read English Language. In fact if I would do that he would help me secure admission in that university. He is a Dean Faculty in the School of Medicine, professor Abdulrazaq Habib. He revealed to me that if he were to return as a graduate student, he would go for anything that will have to do with books, especially fictional works. He really loves his job because he is a successful professor in medicine and health related issues but he also has an unquenchable yearning for books. I asked him how he came about reading books. He told me it was a habit he acquired while flying across the geographies of Europe to pass time while attending conferences from America to London to Paris. The book he would lend me, he told me, was bought in Paris. It was this man that introduced me to Franz Fanon and gave me one of his books in addition to the one I went specifically for.

It is not only those in sciences that have signed memorandum of misunderstanding and dissociation with books. The other time I was sitting in a lecture hall and one of my colleagues whom I have little acquaintance with spoke to me sarcastically. He saw me reading a copy of Henrick Ibsen’s Doll House play. The writing was too small and he asked was it French or Arabic I was reading. I didn’t understand his ridiculous sarcasm at first, and with genuine heart; I replied that it was English. He said I was doing two jobs, the task of straining my eyes to read the text and the task of reading the text. I told him this was not a job. For me, reading is like breathing. I do it effortlessly, unconsciously, without me knowing. People pay to bring their books to read it for them and get them the summary when they couldn’t read them because they are bulky.

I worked briefly in a media consulting firm before I proceeded to university. My employer was always wondering if I did not have other needs to do with money. I divided my salary into two: one half for maintenance, one half for books. That was when money was money.

I feel guilty anytime a day passes without reading. In the last five years since my encouragement and initiation into this business of reading by Mallam Aminu Dele Gwammaja. I could only remember one day that I did not pick a book and read. That is why when I got admission in the university very late, I easily caught up with the earlier students because none of the texts we were going to study that I did not read before. That day which I did not read a book was the day of our graduation from college. I was enveloped in mixed feelings, feelings of excitement and resentment. But even that I had read a newspaper in the morning that day. I have never paraded myself as Dan Boko. It is a long way.


We can excuse our ancestors for not having opportunity of reading those books. But you who is now in school, beating your chest and parading yourself as Dan Boko, there is no rationalization that would justify your inaction to exonerate you. No if, no but, no let’s consider the situation. Except if you are diplomatic Boko Haram! In every generalization there is exception.

(@abubakarsulai13)

Tuesday 4 August 2015

Why I hate love

Abubakar Sulaiman Muhd

Love is a pleasant thing if you are in a nice relationship. It is painful if you are in bad. It is also interesting if you are watching from afar. You often wonder why so and so person you hold in high esteem are behaving in certain ways. Love is a funny thing. It drives people crazy.

Different people have different meaning for love. Whatever kind of meaning you give to it, one thing is certain. The destination. The aim you want to achieve. I am not the one to tell your destination or the aim you want to achieve but the destination is always there.

Whether you are a president, a governor or a top government’s official, great men are daily threatened by love and have their career destroyed.  Take Sani Abacha for example or a man who was badly in need of kiss and furiously grabbed public phone in his office and called his female secretary. Are you crazy, you want me to mention a name? You also want to have my career destroyed. I won’t.   

In achieving his aim and destination, that university professor was possessed by desire for something. Of all the places on earth he couldn’t find any rendezvous to make love with a girl other than to masquerade as a lady to get into the female hostel. Love pulled him down.  Another person was caught in outrageous scandal inviting his female student for special lessons in Organic Chemistry and in the end the whole business ended up in Organic Matter. The other man, overwhelmed with love, had no prior thought for venue and simply chose a public road believing it was a perfect place to make love.  And he was caught.

Granted, love is something beyond human control and all these pent-up emotions do not augur well. When you have something in mind and you suppress it, your soul will trouble you until you express it consciously or unconsciously. So I embrace love. I embrace love anytime a chance presents itself because emotions bottled up don’t yield good result. But I have a problem.  

Relationship is notorious in depriving people of their freedom and liberty. You need to watch your steps from dressing to walking to speech mannerism. A lot of pretensions to conform to the demand and culture of love community.

My problem is that I am a person who recognizes my individuality and struggles to defend it, at least in my mind. I don’t accept some attributes that people will throw at me to define my life, and love is notorious in doing that. I want to live authentic life and I will begin to behave defiantly the moment I learn that someone is trying to control how I behave. I want to be a full human being. Unpredictable. Inconsistent. Because I need absolute freedom, I sometimes struggle with the idea of the kind of battle my wife will have when I get married. I wish that the woman will be understanding.

So when I see a girl but could not summon the courage to approach her, I learnt to bear my anguish in silence. My eyes will coolly appreciate her until she realizes that there is something unusual.

My silence is not because of cowardice. It is because I am meticulous about my dignity and there are problems of dignity crisis here that may arise. What if I talk to her and she ignores me and it is in the full view of the public? It was enormous disgrace trailing after ‘Yar Gidan Hajiya with all the public eyes on me. I no longer have such moral courage now.

In our part it is men who mostly make the first move and strive to maintain the relationship while women always want to be in control. Most of the girls I meet are relatively below my age and I feel uncomfortable to have the whole of me and all my intelligence controlled by a girl the same age with my sister.

Women sometimes want to make men fool, unintelligent and unperceptive. For you to remain in love you have to sometimes be a deliberate fool and pretend that you don’t know anything.

To ni fa matsala ta ke nan! This is what I hate. I don’t have a big heart to tolerate everything. I don’t tolerate anything that will hurt my esteem. I don’t tolerate an open deception. I don’t accept a vivid lie. I don’t tolerate a move from someone trying to hide an open secret. I hate pretension even though it is human nature.

Mata ikon Allah! See this girl. We communicated on phone and agreed that I was coming to see her at night. You would pity me how I abandoned everything and covered miles to reach her place. I arrived there and picked my phone to tell her that I was right in front of her home. When she picked up the call she told me that she could not come out.

“But you knew I was coming.” I said to myself in staggering amazement.

I carried myself all the way to your place and this was my reward. I felt hurt. Yet I somehow managed one more time to tell her that I could wait if she would come out when she had finished what she was doing. She told me once again that she was caught up in a schedule she could not get out of.  

 “I am busy,” she said, “but we can meet tomorrow. Good night.” I was just listening, feeling a kind of acute low esteem.

“Thank you,” I muttered grudgingly. You are not allowed to complain. It will backfire against you.

I dan za’a so ni to a so ni but I hate pretension. If she does not love me why taking the pain to have good wishes for me and suggested that we should meet tomorrow.   What is very amusing is that it was the girl who came to me when we first met and initiated the conversation that eventually led to our relation. I didn’t need to hire a Harvard Symbologist professor to explain to me the message she had been sending.  I hate pretension and that’s the reason why I have parted with ‘Yar Gidan Hajiya. I am not picking on her, this thing is not the monopoly of Hausa girl, it is everywhere among Nigerian girls.

It is very easy for me to part way with pretentious girls. The reason why I don’t go deep into this love business as a whole and take it seriously is that I don’t see love at this stage of my life as something very important. It is waste of time. I am not ready for getting married. I am not believer in doing love without doing anything. Just meet, chat and leave without doing anything tangible. Where is love in this? Maybe I will be deeply involved when I am ready for getting married. By that time a new generation of beautiful girls was borne. Rush is bad business.

What is disturbing now is that the girl would narrate the whole story of what she did to me to her friends. I heard a low voice at the background when she told me she couldn’t come out. Those friends of hers who have been looking for a chance to establish an overture would come out the next day and feel that they have triumphed over me. They would be happy by what one of them did and they would giggle and have pity for me. They would say “Allah Sarki, of all his dignity, look at how he has been disgraced.”

Why women are doing this? They believe that they have something you want. I would say women are playing into the hand of negative stereotype for narrowing their understanding and definition of self into a severely limited view. I would also say that when they allow a man to strive for the love alone, they are, in their subconscious mind, submitting that men are stronger than women. Don’t eject me out I’m still a feminist. They said we should all be feminists.

Why am I saying this while I cannot say ehem somewhere? It is because I believe that whatever I say here would not be gossiped back to the girl I am talking about. Even if somebody carries a word to her or any other girl they think I have a relationship with, she cannot see herself in this story and the only explanation I can offer is what you have read here. So, let’s stop speaking in whisper and have a conversation on this.


(@abubakarsulai13)